Future me

I often think about the future.  I have been asking myself a lot lately what I want to do and be.
Here's what I have come up with: (I realize it's not proper to end with a preposition, but 1} I don't want to fix that and 2} it just doesn't sound right to me)


* Mom. The kind that raises kids who know they are loved, can make good choices, and are kind to others.


* Gardner.  I would be delighted if I could grow most of the produce we ate.  I love the idea of being more self sufficient.


* Crafty.  I want to feel comfortable with tools/saws/drills/etc.  I would love to whip up a hutch or ottoman.  I would also love to repaint/make over furniture.


* Artist. I recently started playing around with watercolors.  The biggest problem is that I want to be really good right now.  I don't want to have to put in the time.  Lazy, I know.


* Well rounded.  I'd like to know a bit about enough things that I could relate to or connect with anyone.


* Fit.  This is kind of like being an artist; I want to be amazing, but I don't want to put in the time.  I'd love to enjoy running.  I would love to be able to say that I have run a marathon. Yet I don't want to have to experience any discomfort or exert myself.  (I should probably add 'motivated' or 'dedicated' to this list...)


* Happy.  Seems easy enough, but that can be really tricky. It's really easy for me to focus on the unjust  depressing or sad things that come my way.


* Rich.  Honestly, I know I would make a superb rich person.

* Fun.  I feel like I'm not as fun or crazy as I used to be.  I don't know how much of that is due to age, and how much is because of other factors.


It is so easy to fall into the monotonous routine of life.  I go day to day.  I go to work, come home, eat dinner, watch Netflix, think about the productive things I could or should be doing, spend time on my church calling, occasionally go to the gym, go to bed, repeat.  And then when I am not content I wonder what I should change.  I guess I need to start working on the things on my list.  But first I think I am going to take a little nap.